I think I’ve had my portion of bad health. From head to toe I have shit going on with me. Granted, I’m a lot better now that I’m not working. So many of my health issues are related to either anxiety/lyme/fibromyalgia etc.
Headaches, mood swings, depression, heart palpatations, numbness, abdominal pain, hip arthritis, leg weakness, cognitive decline. I’ll spare you the rest.
My memory and cognition are big ones for me. They make me worry. I had no idea that my extremely poor memory and cognition issues could be from the constant mood fluctuation caused by bipolar disorder and depression. Word finding problems, forgetting the next thing I was going to say. And math?
While sitting in the psychologist office for my disability exam I was asked to count back from 100 by 7’s. Could not do it. I tried counting in my head, then on my fingers getting mixed up, forgetting the last number. Tears streamed down my face, I was so embarrassed. Of course being put on the spot made me nervous as it always does.
Dementia, schizophrenia, parkinsons, chronic lyme disease all scare me because of the cognitive decline. My doctors have no worry about that at least now I tell myself nor do they tell me, Ms. Wicked Anxiety. I feel like I forget stuff more than before despite controlling my mood so it makes me question if it’s something else.
I know that doing crossword puzzles, word games…reading or anything causing you to think is helpful. I thought starting this blog would also help me connect with others but also challenge me to write and think about what I wanted to say in sentences that make sense. So thanks for reading 🙂