Am I manic crafter? In the past I would have joked that yes I am. I get immersed in my projects. When I’m knitting I have a few projects going on. I’d definitely overspend on yarn and projects. I’d stay up very late working on things and never leave the house without a project in my bag.
This period of depression has effected my joy or sewing/knitting/quilting/embroidering/etc. Now I don’t want to do any of the creative things I have loved to do in the past. I don’t have the patience.
I talked to my pdoc about my lack of interest in all of my past hobbies. I wander around the house with plenty of time to do lots of the things I used to love to do but I just don’t feel any urge. Nothing seems to be enjoyable to me. She told me that she thought my crafting was related to my mania.
I think she might be right! I had never thought of this. It really makes me sad since being manic is not good for me and we are trying to avoid it. Is my creativity gone forever now that I’m on a mood stabilizer? I hope not.
Maybe as this depression lifts things will change. Maybe I’ll get my hobbies back. If not I’ll settle for happy.